## Expanding my access ### The devil I know vs the Angel I don't
I've been a selfhosting nerd for a bit now. I run a Jellyfin server, as well as a Nextcloud server for my parter and I to host all of our media and documents and photos and stuff on. I like it, and other than overhead there really doesn't seem to be many of the normal issues of the HTTP WWW. Well, I guess that's not true. The ability to add apps and federate my Nextcloud as potentially turns into a micro social-media network. Jellyfin is literally music, movies, tv and books. Thats 100% distraction. I added an AI assistant that doesn't work to Nextcloud, because I missed the corpo enshittification. Not really, It actually does work but the task pickup is bonkers slow.
Using Nextcloud over http, I can link a folder on my laptop to a folder on my desktop. I've linked my server static files and cgi files folders so I can manage this capsule from any machine I have access to nextcloud with. This means I can manage the capsule from any machine with internet access. As cool as it would be to have an exposed SSH node, I don't know enough about SSH to be sure I'm keeping that safe. Good thing I'm in a linux class right now. I'd be really interested in figuring out some way to use the gemini protocol for this purpose, maybe even extend nextcloud to have a gemini client. That'd be cool as hell, and as long as it was philosophically sound in its execution I'd be using it all the time.
### So What's the Point of all this? Shit, IDK. I'm just trying to carve out a little piece of the net for myself, and learn a bit in the process. I DO NOT LIKE the world wide web as it has become. Web 2.0 was bad. Web 3.0 is worse. The deeper I go down the rabbit hole the more I begin to feel like Web 1.0 was a mistake and we should all still be using BBS's and Finger servers to keep the barrier to entry into the web higher. [Sigh] It's fine. Clearly there is a place for the more technically inclined on the web to hang out. Clearly there is a place for those who reject modernity.
### I feel like I'm a spy
Do you guys have any idea how hard it is to learn anything about Gemini? I'm using the Jetforce server, go ahead, look that up on clearweb or even Kennedy and see what you find. Motorcycles and Google's Shitty AI >:(
Ok Fine. Let's specify the protocol? 'Jetforce Gemini' aaand Search. ARE YOU KIDDING ME?!? An N64 game from the late 90's.
This makes me feel like I'm trying to crawl through a mile of doublespeek just to get to a grain of truth which can GET ME OUT of this system. I want to get off Mr Bone's wild ride. This ride sucks, it's too damn long, there's an exit but it leads straight back into the entrance! How many times in my life have I closed the reddit app on my smartphone only to open my web browser and go straight to reddit.com on my desktop? I rejected the corpo site, only to do the SAME DAMN THING with lemmy, mastodon, pixelfed, loops. I feel like an addict who wants to kick but everyone on their damn block has a fix ready for me.
### It's been 2 days
I haven't logged into Any social media (Except for Astrobotany, if that counts) other than posting to my TWTXT in 2 days. TWTXT give's me the freedom to scream into the void without giving a damn who's following. It's honestly great for me, very nice. I've got my dumbphone set up with my hotspot. Transferred over my contacts, added a nice big SD card to fill it with music (10 pts for the headphone jack) too. I feel liberated. I've also got those Barefoot Shoes too, so I've been feeling the need to be active and run and move around. I don't feel like I'm fighting my body to do stuff for the first time in my adult life. On Tuesday, I experienced Runner's high for the first time.
###School is tough I have a problem. It's a weird problem. I tend to misinterpret overly verbose documents (especially those offering instructions) as including far more instructions than they actually do. This actually goes beyond reading as well, for example when I think of doing the dishes, each dish is several microtasks: * Pick up dish * Inspect for areas needing special attention * Rinse dish * Scrub dish * Rinse dish * Inspect for areas needing a second pass * Scrub dish * Rinse dish * Dry dish * Identify where dish belongs * Open cupboard where dish belongs * Place dish in cupboard * Close cupboard This continues on for Every Single Dish. So when I'm given an assignment and the first sentence is "compare and contrast these three prompts" you bet your ass I'm gonna write you 4 paragraphs completing that task.
In my programming classes, this is extremely helpful. I get to analyze the program specification and complete the program by checking off a list of the features and tasks I deem required based on the text. This is extremely thorough and as a result I have a Perfect score in every programming class I've taken thusfar (thats 2.5). In an english class however this brings in a level of tedium and verbosity that I don't know how to avoid. I feel like I'm an LLM just burning tokens because I haven't answered every part of your prompt yet and I haven't created a stop token yet so I'm just supposed to keep going because I haven't completed your prompt yet and I haven't created a stop token yet so I'm just supposed to keep going because I haven't completed your prompt yet.... and so on and so on and so on. Fuck I hate English classes. Actually that's not even a little bit true, I love English classes. I hate how somehow the smallest prompt becomes and Essay for me and spirits forbit I be assigned an essay, because you know DAMN well I'm gonna struggle not to write a novel. This is after all, over 1100 words straight off the cuff.
This is too long. I'm stopping it here, even know I have more to ramble about. Maybe I'll twt later.
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